All relationships in general, are difficult at times. Over time, the dynamics of any relationship can evolve or change and you've got to work at it. I have seen it first hand growing up and even now just looking around,I see it everywhere. While I'm aware of the non-existence of "perfect relationship" out there, it's tough when it hits home. It feels awful, to say the least. I can rack my brains all day & night for an answer,but it always does a full circle & stops at the same damn place where I first started.
In or Out? I want to choose in because the rational part of me screams that's what a good mother should do and more essentially, my mom never left and she stuck out for me. After all, what kind of a mom would I be, if I take the easy way out?
I want to choose out because I know things would never be the same again. I'd be willing to give yet another go it,because at the end of the day I'd always blame myself for everything. I have a ready made list of excuses..maybe I didn't try harder,may be I should've done that or maybe things will change...maybe someone else has it much harder than I am..and a bunch of "what if's"..
It seems "in" is ganging up on my "out" and I'm back again to where I first started..
4 comments:
Sigh I hate free loaders!!! Anyhow gal if there is no solution in sight let it go cos your daughters aren't immune to the growing distance between your husband and you. I wish the in-laws could talk to him and maybe solve something. I really hope for your beautiful daughters sake you'll resolve. Don't pass on this tragedy like your Mum did to you to your daughters it doesn't need to be carried down a 3rd generation if it really isn't working.
mika..in case you hvnt noticed yet, im nuts over leaves..! like yours too.
aysh..a compromise is in works & am gonna ride it out..wish me luck!
Yes I definitely agree with you, I wish people would also understand that.
thx raaji. btw..i read yr blog a little bit & was blown away!! so you live in D.C?
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